I’ve got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts - you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn’t do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing.


"I like him. I’m not in love with him or anything. I don’t even know if I want anything to progress farther than a friendship. but I know that I like him. he’s cute, and he’s sweet. And even when he tells jokes at my expense, it makes me laugh, I can’t help it. but I’m almost 100% sure that he would never feel the same way about me, and that nothing would ever happen between us. I just needed to admit that, yeah I actually think I truthfully like him."




My mood sucks so much right now that I feel like I can burst into tears any moment. Wtf man.
Want and need my comfort food. Ugh.

Everything is just so messed up right now, I just need a clear cut sign from someone, anyone. Enough of the dubious signs and mixed signals, enough of the hanging, just enough.
Just need someone to understand. Just need you to understand. Just need myself to understand. Need to get everything sorted out in my mind and to drop every single thing.
Just so tired of every single thing, and of everyone.

My mind has to stop wandering off. Needs. To. Stop. Its disturbing me. Its scaring me. Ugh. Just need to take it one step at a time.



Everyone's like YAY TGIF. I'm here like "Oh planless Friday." Ughhhh. Probably gonna sleep this moodiness away before I go crazy. :(