What am I supposed to say? Its solely my fault. Entirely my fault. I just wanna forget about all these and just let things be back to normal, or even better. I can't stop checking. 宁愿你骂我，喊我，也不要你对我冷漠无言。 Since when you had such an impact in my life?

And I really need to learn things the hard way. I've learnt it through the hard way. Went to bed three hours ago with a heavy heart, suddenly waking up and that horrible feeling's still there.

Even though I got an unexpected text an hour ago, it still doesn't stop me from wondering if you're still angry with me. 只要你能消气，我会等。换来一句晚安，也算不错了。

No wonder people say silent treatment kills. Its killing me, inside. Slowly but surely.
Sometimes I just wanna scream and tell you how I feel. Sometimes, just sometimes, some days.

Please just be kind to me, September. Its just the fourth day. Three hours left to sleep. Goodnight, you.