Hello May. Its May, and I'm still unwell. I finally went to the doctor's because my fever came back. I don't wanna continue being sick. I WANNA GET WELL. Gonna be a good girl and finish all the medicine the doctor gave. Heheheh.

DD again, with my favorite girl. Cider Pit again, with the same group. THIS WEEKEND WILL BE GOOD. AND EPIC. Hopefully. Yay, how to get well like this? ☺ But YOLO. I need to catch up on my Gossip Girl soon.


If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me.
You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my Internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. I’m horrible at keeping in touch with people; I’d forget to call, to text. I change my mind way too much, I can’t settle.
You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart.
If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in random just telling you I hope you had a great day.
You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me.



I don't know what I'm confused about, or why I even am. Oh my god. I wanna get well soon. I wanna sleep well. I wanna lose weight and lose fats.