Overwhelming feelings. I miss my dad alot. I don't even have a decent photo w him apart from this one. The rest? Are taken when I was a kid. Sometimes I'm afraid that I'll forget how my dad looks like, then I'll find myself staring at his photo for ages.

Then I'll think of everything, and everyone. Including the family from the other side. Sadly, we haven't talked for like 8 years? Apart from the big sister and big bro, the rest..... We've become like strangers. I miss all of them. I miss everyone. I miss 大妈, I miss 二姐 and 三姐... I miss my cousins (IF my sis and I were ever cousins to them), I miss my uncles and my aunt.
8 long years. Miss the rowdy gatherings I had w them as a child even though I had awkward moments.

My dad was the reason to why we met. Now that he's gone, what is left for me are memories. Good and bad. What I've seen when I was a child, and every thing else.

Guess this is life. Hard cold fact. That once the pillar is gone, everything else falls apart. Including family.

I wish you were still here though. Because I really really miss you dad. How I wish I had more memories w you. I love you dad.